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Wednesday, July 29, 2009

A New Found Love...

I'm sure all of you know what all has been going on in the lives of the Nobles. It has been a sad week here! While I understand that God has reasons for everything and I may not understand what has happened, but I do accept it. I cry one minute and am fine the next...that seems to be the cycle here in our home this week. You see, we saw our little baby 3 different times, all wiggly and heard the heartbeat, strong and normal, then there it was nothing. It was devastating and still is.

However, with all that being said I have discovered a new found love during all this. I love my husband more than I can even express, however over the past several days I have discovered a whole new love for the man whom I have committed myself to.

He has washed dishes and cleaned house and done laundry and even scrubbed poop out of cloth diapers! While all that is wonderful, that isn't the reason I have this new love. I realized this man loves me and our son SO much! I am constantly asking if he is okay and his response is always "I'm okay if you are okay". He has held me through the breakdowns and shed tears along side me. He has reassured me and encouraged me like only he can. As for him being both Mommy and Daddy this week....

As I was coming out of the shower I caught sight of something that I have never seen and will never forget. I saw my wonderful hubby dancing around the living room with Junior Mint. He was laughing and holding onto his daddy with such love. I just stood there watching, I couldn't move as it brought tears to my eyes to watch the love that is shared between the two most important men in my life! Then I had a chance to see it again as I watched them through our front door as they played outside with their ball caps on and writing with chalk on the sidewalk. I thought..."there's my everything". I realized right then that I am okay. I am so blessed right now and everything else is OK!

So, you see my new found love is for a man who wipes my tears, holds my hand, comforts my heart, takes care of me, talks to me, reassures me, encourages me and loves me!


Saturday, July 25, 2009

What is happening???

I know many of you know by now what is happening in the Noble family, but for some of you I'm sure you are asking "what is happening?" And right now, I find myself asking the same thing.

I will start at the beginning. For the back ground to all of this you can check out the post "God is Great...God is Good!" Yesterday morning I woke up with some pretty heavy bleeding, if you read the above post you know this is not unusual, but I wasn't sure when it was too much bleeding and should worry, so I called my OB nurse, Brooke, who is amazing. She decided I needed to come in for an "immediate ultrasound". The sound of that was worrisome but I tried to stay calm. We have a wonderful associate pastor who was able to keep Junior Mint and our awesome neighbor drove me so I could ride home with Mr. Goodbar (who was meeting me there).

Well, as soon as my ultrasound started we both knew there was something wrong...then came those dreaded words "Honey, I am so sorry". It took a few seconds to set in and when it did, it hit hard! So, there we sat in the ultrasound room crying, more so balling our eyes out. Then we had to move to the room to speak with the doctor. There it became even more real as we had to discuss our next options. It all was a blur, I just wanted her to hurry up so we could get out of there, but that wasn't the case. They gave us 15 minutes to get to the hospital (which wasn't a problem because it is directly across the street) so they could work me into surgery. You see, I was 12 weeks and 5 days and the other options were not something I wanted; the idea of "wait and see what happens" wasn't happening in my book, I knew I couldn't handle that.

So, off to the surgery center we went. We went from home, to the doctor, to the hospital, to pre-op to the OR in a matter of hours. There an amazing doctor (Dr. McLendon if you EVER need a wonderful OB-GYN) explained how something wasn't right from the beginning, between my placenta and the hemmorhage. He held my hand as they put me to sleep, reassuring me that I would have more perfect babies just like my perfect son I have now! Everything went well, I guess if that's how to describe everything. I was home by 4:30 and resting.

Yes, I am okay. Surprisingly, okay. Yes, I have cried but over all I'm surprisingly good. I have faith in my God. I will find a way to glorify Him. I don't know why this happened. I know there is no reason for me to be angry, who is there to be angry with? I know my God didn't do this out of "retaliation" for my sins or because he enjoys his children hurting. I know my God has reasons for everything, while I may not understand it, I know there is a reason. I had a wonderful person, Angela, send me this yesterday:

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 (she sent 1-13 but that's really long)

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

It came at such a wonderful time. As I was laying in bed last night, a song kept ringing in my head:

I will serve You, Lord always

For You are my strength when I am weak

And I will never be afraid

For You are my rock and You protect me

But I'll praise You, for You are Holy Lord

And I'll lift my hands but You are worthy of so much more

For You are awesome God of the Nations

Lion of Judah, Rock of the Ages

Alpha, Omega. Worthy of all praise

More than these hands I raise

You see, I am fine, I will be fine. I know my God is right beside me, you see, if I lean on Him I can't go wrong! He IS my strength and He IS my rock!!

Thank you for all your prayers and support!!!

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Just Because....

Just because he is so darn cute:

Oh the things....

So, as we are raising our son we are trying to teach him right and wrong and good and bad and as many other parents out there we are trying to teach him manners and good hygiene. In our quest to teach good hygiene we try to teach Junior Mint to brush his teeth, wash his hands and not let the dogs lick his hands then eat off of them. Take a moment to check out how well it has all sunk in!!

Cool Dude....

Check out the coolest dude around...

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Long Live the King

“Long Live the King”…that’s the statement that Madonna used to describe Michael Jackson. When you hear that statement what do you think? I will tell you what you should think…and it’s definitely NOT Michael Jackson.

There is only ONE King, that King is Jesus Christ. Our pastor made a statement that couldn’t ring more true today of all days: “When you stand before THE KING, you won’t be the king of anything”.

You can’t turn on the TV without a flood of images of Michael Jackson or hearing his songs or plans for his funeral. Every time they show a group of people there is, undoubtedly a large number of them crying, sobbing really, for a “King” they never knew. You see people holding prayer vigils for the “biggest influence on this generation”. You see people talking of “an icon” that will live forever. Does this bother anyone but me? Yes, I understand that he made a big impact on the musical community, but ask yourself, “what did he really do for ME?”

What if I told the story of a King who walked this earth without the fame and fortune, died a horrible death and does LIVE FOREVER. It really bothers me to watch the tears flow from people, including Christians, who say “it just isn’t fair” or “how could this be”. There is something that is far more unfair than that! Think of a man who was beaten and killed by the people he wanted to save. How can people sob at the thought of a human, a man destined to die, leaving this earth and yet not shed a tear when they see Jesus hanging on a cross left to die? How can these people shed more tears for a man they never met and never will, than they do for a family member or for the King of Kings? How can they hold prayer vigils for someone who they know nothing more about than what the media has told them but yet turn away and refuse to prayer to a risen King?

I do feel saddened by people living this earth tragically, and yes, I believe Michael Jackson’s death was tragic. However, I’m not going to put my life on hold for a man who is just a man. There are people who are quitting their jobs in order to attend the funeral services but yet would those same people give up a weekend on the lake for an Easter service? Christians need to wake up in this world…..wake up and realize we serve a risen King, not a fleeting person who had a brief walk on this Earth and will face the same judgment we will ALL face.

Please don’t read this and think I’m callous to the fact that a family lost a son, brother, father, etc….but I can honestly say I didn’t loose a king of anything. My King is living, I am serving my King, my King will live forever, my King is there for you too.

So despite what you think of Michael Jackson, please remember that if you are a Christian, he is NOT your king and he will NOT be there for you like the King you have chosen to serve. If you are not a Christian, please know that Michael Jackson is not a king to be worshiped, there is a King that wants to be there for you, a King that never dies, a King that will reign supreme!

Remember: When you stand before The King, you won’t be the king of anything!!!