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Monday, November 1, 2010

Fun Size

With Halloween just happening, I couldn't think of a better way to put this.....

My little "Fun Size" candies are not to "Fun Size" anymore!! They are almost full size candy bars, I realize it won't be long before they are movie size!! Ha Ha!!

Check out my little, not so little, candy stash:

Why I've been MIA

So, I haven't totally forgot about my blog, I promise!! You see, my computer died. It didn't just run the battery dead or even get a virus and stop for a while...it actually died; as in it belongs in a laptop landfill somewhere! We aren't sure what happened, Mr. Goodbar thinks it is the motherboard.

Anyway, he has so kindly let me borrow one of his computers, but of course NONE of my files are on it. At least I got my files backed up before my computer was completely gone, I just can't upload them to his computer!!

So, I hope you understand that I haven't decided to let the blog go or to leave anyone hanging on how my little candy stash is doing!!

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Slow Fade....

I'm sure most of the people reading my blog know the song "Slow Fade" by Casting Crowns. It says:
The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day

That is so true! I was having a conversation with my wonderful, Mr. Goodbar the other day. We were talking about money, like I'm sure most couples do quite often! Don't get me wrong, we don't have tons of money to spare or are just "raking it in" but we do okay. We can pay all of our bills, we can buy food, we can enjoy some luxuries that a lot of families can't, especially right now, but we were talking about how people we know can afford luxury cars or huge homes or lavish trips. I asked how can these people afford these things but we just can't seem to be able to find the extra cash to take a small vacation?

Mr. Goodbar had a good answer...it explained everything! He said....honey, if we didn't tithe we would have a lot of free cash? (Now, I'm sure here is where some of you will argue what the Bible actually says about what we are called to give. I believe in the old Testament and that it still applies, but that is not where I think it stops. We can discuss this if you like, send me a message) Then I had the thought that probably most people have had. I thought well, if we didn't tithe so much, we could get that new car or take that cruise. Then I spent a split second (well, to be honest way longer than that) thinking about all the things we could do with that money!!

After those car thoughts, vacation thoughts, shopping sprees, updates to the house that we could accomplish over an extended period of time I realized....it's not like the Bible forces us to tithe! We do it out of obedience, just like we do everything. Mr. Goodbar once told a friend, who recently reminded me of this, "the Bible isn't a list of things you have to do, it's a guide on how to avoid heartache and pain". The Bible doesn't force us to do anything, it lays out ways we are called to be obedient and tithing is one of them!

If we start there and stop tithing, where will it end? Will I then begin to think that all that time we devote to church could be better spent cleaning or shopping? Will I start to believe that certain lifestyles are okay because it's generally accepted and the Bible doesn't force me to believe that way? You see, it's a SLOW FADE!! Something so small as not writing a check or even writing a smaller check can quickly turn into skipping church or deciding to not get involved in church. It's so easy for a thought to quickly make it to your hand, like the song says!

Next time you have the thoughts of disobedience (or if you are in a state of disobedience) think of the slow fade and how easily things can degrade!

Thursday, September 9, 2010

My NOT so little nuggets...

My little nuggets aren't so little anymore!!

Junior Mint will be 2 1/2 on the 20th of this month, WOW! He is growing so fast, well growing but not really getting "big". He went to the doctor a few weeks ago and he weighed only 26 lbs. I find it funny that he could still fit in the infant car seat! He went back to the doctor yesterday with a belly ache. I have strep throat and my doctor said that in kids that age they often only complain of a belly ache when they have strep. Mr. Goodbar was home (because he is an amazing, wonderful hubby that took off to help me) and took Junior Mint to the doctor. Sure enough....he has strep too!! So, more antibiotics for this household! At least, that isn't an illness babies get!! But he is doing amazing.

We are having some behavior issues, he is SO strong willed. I found a book that Babywise talks about Parenting the Strong-Willed Child. I will let you all know how it works out. It is a 5 week program. I can honestly say I do see a difference after just doing the first step (they say not to read or skip ahead). You do each step for 7 days, master it, then move on. Like I said, I will keep you updated on how it works.

As for Twix, he is growing like a weed!! I think it won't be long before he catches up to Junior Mint. When he had his 2 month check-up two weeks ago he was 11 lbs. 2 oz. I'm sure by now he is close to 12 lbs! That's almost half of Junior Mint!! He is such a happy baby. He is very scheduled and does great with it!! He has been sleeping through the night since 6 weeks, 3 days and has done so every night since!! He likes to talk to you and smile! He loves to just look around and take it all in. I think his favorite thing is watching his big brother and talking to him!

Enjoy a little bit of our little man, with our big man trying to take his picture in the background!!


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Thursday, August 19, 2010

Black and White

Yesterday, at a meeting for our new mom's program at church we decided on a theme of "Black and White". We talked about how things are black and white, not gray.

I've heard a lot of people saying "well, it depends or depends on the situation". NO, really it doesn't!! There is no gray area in life, well, in the life of Christians there is no gray area!! There is no, maybe I should do this because it is what is right "right now". There is no, well...the Bible isn't clear on that. There is no, there's no right or wrong here. Everything has a right and a wrong. Everything is BLACK OR WHITE!!!

I understand that people want to think there is a gray area in life. Life is a whole lot easier if there is gray area where we are left to decide what is wrong and right, or that there is no morality attached to it all. In all honesty, there is morality attached to almost every decision. Stick with me here....I know you are saying there are certain decision that are amoral. Is that true? Maybe, like which bathroom stall to use; but the bigger decisions are the ones I'm referring to. Our motives behind the decision are usually where the morality issue lies. Going to a certain grocery store doesn't seem like a moral issue, but if we choose that store because the guy who carries our groceries hits on you....it has now become a moral issue. If you are choosing to drink because the Bible doesn't clearly lay it out (which, I will disagree there) that's a morality issues. Why are you drinking? Do you have more fun when you drink? What does "fun" mean? Do you hang out with different people when you drink? Are they Godly people? I know people can say they make all kinds of decisions without having to place morality behind it...but what happens when you really look at why you are doing something?

Say, you choose a certain grocery store because it saves money (the decision can stop there if it is to truly just save your family money). What are you planning to do with the money? Are you buying things you shouldn't be buying or spending money some where that you shouldn't? Now, don't get me wrong...I am ALL about saving money!! Don't take that the wrong way...but check the places in your life that you could be cutting to save more money! Do you need to search for money at the end of the month to pay the bills but your fridge is stocked with alcohol and your purse with cigarettes? Do your receipts show a lot of movies that you probably shouldn't be watching anyway? What about the time you spend clipping the coupons? Does the time you spend doing that amoral thing take time away from your husband/wife or kids? Does it cut out the time you have to read the Bible or spend time with God? If not, that's great..cut away!!

My point to all this is that life is really BLACK or WHITE! The so-called gray areas are really black or white that we have thrown the other color in just to suit what we want to do when we want to do it. Every decision can be made easily if we rely on Godly wisdom and the life instructions he has given us...the BIBLE!!

Monday, August 16, 2010

Take a minute....Really LISTEN!

DON'T FORGET TO PAUSE THE MUSIC IN THE LEFT COLUMN!!

You've patiently waited for it....HERE HE IS!!!

Our newest addition is officially two months old (well, tomorrow he will be)!

I wanted to wait until we "got to know" the little guy before we gave him his blog name, especially since it will be immortalized in the cyber world!! I don't want him to be 20 years old and ask why in the world we would have called him "Goober" or "Whatchamacallit" on the blog!!

Anyway....after thinking and talking it over we want to introduce our little

TWIX

I was trying to find just the right candy to describe him. As his little personality is developing, I am noticing that he seems to ponder things over. He will stare at you, as if he is thinking it over before he smiles. He will get those eyebrows scrunched up like he is giving you a "hmmmmm..." look! He's "chewing it over" like the Twix slogan says!!!

He is a wonderful baby. He started sleeping through the night at 6 week 3 days!!! He is on a great schedule, eating every 4 hours starting at 7 AM!

I will post more updates on his growth and such after his two month check-up on Friday! (WOW...has it really been that long?)

Hopefully, I will be back in the full swing of things here soon and will get back to my cathartic writing!! It's amazing how much better you feel when you write out your thoughts. You should try it.....start a blog, about whatever it is you love or can't stand!!! (Don't forget to let me know so I can follow you)



Friday, July 30, 2010

A new addition....a new look!

Please bare with me over the next week or so as I attempt to find a new look for our blog!

As some of you may have noticed, Google shut down my blog for a while. They said they suspected suspicious activity?? When I finally did get it back up and running several of my elements were gone. I knew I needed to change things but I guess that just confirmed it!!

You may see the progress, so don't be surprised if it changes several times a day!!

Please check back and see the changes that are being made. Hopefully, you will like the change!!


Thursday, July 15, 2010

A week in review...

I try to write more profound thoughts with a few updates here and there....however, lately it is all updates! This is totally our...

WEEK IN REVIEW:

Last Thursday night (1 am feeding, so technically Friday morning) I noticed I was itching and realized my arms and belly were covered in hives...lots of hives! I took Benedryl and no response... they just kept getting worse. I went to Urgent Care when they opened. They said it was an allergic reaction and gave me 4 pills of Prednisone and that was about it. The hives and rash stayed but I was doing pretty well Friday night, considering! Saturday morning I woke up with hives COVERING my whole body!! It looked like my skin was boiling off there was so much redness and so many bumps. I then added a fever to the symptoms and it hurt to breathe. Sooooo... off to Urgent Care again! They looked at me, gave me a shot of steroids and sent me to the ER. There, the doctor thought it was an allergic reaction too, and gave me an IV of stronger steroids, Vistaril (like Benedryl) and Pepcid (which is an anti-histamine too). They ran test to check for a bacterial infection and look at some blood counts. Everything looked good. They sent me home with a steroid pack, Vistaril and Pepcid. I started to get better. The rash was going away and the itching was getting better. Sunday was a pretty good day! That's where that ends and it gets odd!!

Monday I woke up and couldn't move! Literally, my hands didn't work, they were COVERED with bright red spots. I was throwing up and in the bathroom. My arm and shoulder hurt to move; it was excruciating pain! My jaws didn't really open and it hurt to move them. My lips were swollen and my hives were returning. So, I went to my PCP doctor. They were NO help!! They had NO clue what it was and had no clue where to even begin. She got another doctor who looked at me and had some ideas. He thought thyroid problems or Lupus. They ran TONS of blood work and sent me home. I was miserable. I couldn't hold the little nugget; the weight of him in my arms was too much to bear. After that, the pain moved to all my joints and muscles. It hurt to move anything. I couldn't get my clothes off and I couldn't stand. Mr. Goodbar had to help me to the bathroom, but there was no where he could touch me that didn't hurt! I was miserable!!

Tuesday, was a little better. My joints and muscles were still aching. I was still itching and hurting. The pain was SO odd, unlike anything I had ever experienced. It would move from joint to joint and one minute it would be fine and then like a tidal wave it would hit!

Wednesday, about the same as Tuesday. Spent most of the morning trying to make a doctor's appointment for an Allergist/Immunologist.

This morning is what most of you are awaiting. Well, it was a good news day! We saw the Allergist/Immunologist this morning (He was great, by the way). We explained everything and he instantly said it was an allergic reaction. He looked at the pictures I had of me from Monday and explained the horrible pain. He said that was part of a severe anaphylactic reaction. I didn't know that meant more than breathing issues, but it does! He said whatever I am allergic to was causing a reaction inside that couldn't come out. The skin was getting better because the medicine was semi-working. The meds they gave me weren't strong enough to really get rid of the anaphylaxis, just suppress it for a little while. He doesn't know what I am allergic to and said we may never know. Right now, he has to work on getting it all out of my system! He thought it could be a reaction to the drugs from labor and deliver. He said it can be a couple of months before the drugs work their way through a person's system.

I did get all the blood work back, finally!! Everything was normal!! Prayers were answered there!! I can handle an allergic reaction compared to all the auto-immune disorders they were considering!

I go back to the allergist in a month. In the meantime, I am on a stronger, longer steroid to try to completely knock out whatever it is causing it. If I have the symptoms again, I have to do steroids again but hopefully, can get them sooner so the reaction won't be as severe. This new doctor is going to review my blood work just as a double check! I am still hurting though, and I get tired easily, especially my muscles. The pain moves from joint to joint... as I type this it is in my thumb, making it INCREDIBLY hard to type! Today, it seems to be effecting my eyes too. They are really tired and achy! Overall, I'm getting better, just dealing with the symptoms as they come and go. Hopefully, this new drug will work quickly and effectively and I can avoid another outbreak until I go back in August!

Thank you SO much for all the prayers. Please continue to pray that things get better and the pain continues to ease up. Also, please pray that I can avoid another breakout!!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Learning from our kids....

WOW....that's still odd to say..."KIDS". That takes some getting used to!!

We strive to teach our kids the right and wrong things and how to be a morally sound person. We strive to teach them all the physical things they need to learn. We strive to teach them to read and write. I think we often forget to stop and take the time to learn from our kids.

This week I've had two lessons from my babies! The first was from the little nugget. At two and a half weeks he's already teaching Mommy some things. Ever since we brought him home from the hospital I was dying for the umbilical cord to fall off so he could have a REAL bath. Finally, Sunday morning (about 2 am to be exact) it happened. Then all the sudden I got kind of sad and emotional about it. Now, it could have been the lack of sleep or hormones taking over, but that doesn't change what I got out of it. I thought about what that little black thing meant. It was the last reminder of the time he spent in me, the time he spent directly connected to me, getting what he needed without needing to ask for it. Now, he is in a cold, harsh world where he has to cry to express his needs and often longs for being back in his comfortable place that he was so happy in. I thought about how we have a connection to God like that. He can give us EVERYTHING we need! We have a constant link between Him and us. We are in the same cold, harsh world crying for someone to listen to us for what we need, we often forget that we don't have to do that. We have the same kind of tie to God that my little guy had to me for nine months, a comfortable place to get our needs met. It is incredibly comforting to know that the connection we have to God will never be cut or fall off. No one can sever that bond. We can forget it is there and think he has left us, but that bond is never broken and we can always rely on God!!

The second lesson was from my incredible 2 year old, Junior Mint! We have a few Gideon Bibles laying around the house, Junior Mint got one and asked us to read it. Every night for about a week now we have read a few chapters with him. On Friday, he picked up the Bible and wanted me to read but I couldn't at that moment. He started flipping through the pages and page after page he said "God loves me". He told me that is what it said. I just looked at him and said "Yes, it does". I wish we all could remember that! Every page of the Bible is covered with "GOD LOVES ME!!" We want to point out the do and don't of the Bible and all the "rules" of church or being a Christian, when really every page says "God loves me!"

It amazes me the lessons I can get from my kiddos. The innocence that is behind some of the conversations we have and the joy that is in his heart takes my breath away!! We need to take the time to stop and listen to our kids sometimes. Sometimes, they can teach us things no one else can!!

Getting back in the swing of things....

It's really hard getting back into the swing of things...or finding a "new swing" is hard!

The little nugget was diagnosed with GERD; Junior Mint had the same thing soon after he was born! He is on Zantac, hopefully it will soon pass! They usually grow out of it in a few months. It is making getting on schedule harder than it should be, but we can do it!! I'm trying to stay positive to the fact that sleep WILL return to our household soon enough!!

Junior Mint is adjusting wonderfully!! He LOVES his baby brother. The first thing he says when he wakes up is "Where is ______?" and then he has to kiss him goodnight before he goes to bed. He is such a big helper!! He is like a little set of extra hands, which I could use about 5 more sets of hands these days!! We are SOOOO proud of him!!

Overall, we are doing well. The little nugget is growing like crazy! I'm feeling a thousand times better than when I was pregnant, just tired now!

The house is a mess, we are all tired, it's a lot louder around here....but we are loving our life!!

Thursday, June 24, 2010


On Thursday, June 17th (one week ago today) we welcomed our newest little nugget to the family!! Our beautiful baby boy weighed in at 7 lbs. 7 oz., 20 inches long!

It was a long process to get him here but once he decided to come…it was shorter than we EVER expected!!

Tuesday, I went back to the hospital with the same torn muscle pain I had been having, only this time I couldn’t get my pain meds down. The doctor decided to induce earlier…Thursday! We had to call at 6:00am to get our time to come in. The nurse told me to be there before 7:30am. We stopped at Chick-fil-A for breakfast and then we were off for what I thought would be a long day! We checked in at 7am and got all changed and hooked up. I was still having the same small contractions as normal (sad that had become normal). They started pitosin…A LOT of it!! The doctor broke my water about 10:45 or so and we were off. I was 4 cm. About 20 minutes later I asked for my epidural before the pain got too bad…well… the anesthesiologist was in another room so I had to wait. They sat me up and got me all ready and something about the movement caused things to go crazy! Instantly, I felt horrible back and pelvis pain, not really full blown contractions. I don’t think the nurse believed me because my contractions were only registering in the 20s. She kept saying “another one already??” At this point, I yelled at Mr. Goodbar, got mad at the nurse and started to think I wouldn’t make it until that anesthesiologist got there! But, as you guessed, I did make it! He came and started my epidural, set up the pump and we waited (I never got to the point of needing to press the button for more meds).

About 10 minutes later the nurse came and moved the monitor for the baby because they couldn’t get a heartbeat. They turned me about 20 times, 20 different directions. I had to flip and flop and turn and twist. They propped me up and dropped my head below my belly and still, couldn’t get a heartbeat. Mr. Goodbar, my mom and I all had this horrible feeling that a c-section was coming. Finally, she decided to check me saying “we will just see if this is it, but it can’t be already.” Sure enough, she said “well, there’s the baby and we are ready to go, NOW.”

My doctor said he would come back at noon to check on me. When he got there they told him we were ready. I started pushing at 12:10 and our newest little nugget arrived at 12:22pm. It was a total of about 1 hr 45 min. The baby nurse almost didn’t even make it there, the doctor called for her twice because it was so fast. It was truly an answer to prayers, because with the torn muscle I wasn’t sure how long/hard I could push.

Everything went great!! He did have a lot of fluid because of having such a quick delivery. He would gag and couldn’t get it up and start to turn blue. On Friday, they had to fill his little belly full of saline and flush it out. It made a HUGE difference and things were much better by Saturday.

We got released on Saturday and have been home ever since. Things are going well. We are trying to find our new normal! His weight is great, he’s eating great, he’s sleeping well and he is incredibly cute (looks just like Junior Mint did)!!

We are so excited and ready to see what the future holds!

(Just in case you were wondering, no we don’t have a name for him yet to add to our little Candy Store on here, we want to see how his personality develops first)

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Attack of the Torn Muscle!!!

We were hit again....the attack of the torn muscle!!! I feel like I need that horror movie music playing! Dun....Dun....Dun...(just doesn't have the same effect when you read it).

Yesterday was another very eventful day for us!! The morning was pretty normal, other than this new phase that Junior Mint is going through (that I sure hope passes fast)! He asks for what he wants over and over and over and over....you get the point. I think he is trying to wear me down to give in but it really just ends in time out for him, so hopefully it will be quick lived!!

Anyway, I was hurting around lunch but made lunch (which is very hard because our new fridge stopped working last Thursday and they can't come until tomorrow). We ate and I decided I needed my pain medicine cause it was getting worse. By the time I got to the bathroom to get the pills I could barely move. I dropped my pill (a narcotic) and it went under the couch. I got in the floor to try to find it and the evil torn muscle monster attacked in full force!!! I sat there crying and couldn't move!! All I could think was that I couldn't get my medicine and the dog would eat it and then that would be a whole other issue!! Junior Mint got my phone for me and I called our neighbor to come over. He came and got me my medicine and found the lost pill!! Him and his wife waited with me until the pain eased up! Luckily, it was nap time for Junior Mint so he went down and I sat down.

You can imagine what I was like with 2 pain killers in my system!! I laid down and was good for about an hour. THEN....I got this over whelming feeling of being sick. I threw up and threw up and threw up some more! I couldn't keep anything down, which made me dizzy and shaky. Mr. Goodbar came home early to try to help me out. My mom had called him worried and he called my doctor. The nurse wanted me to go to the hospital to double check everything.

When we got to the doctor it was about 5:30. They hooked me up and sure enough, contractions!! But that's nothing new!! The doctor did some more blood work (God knows what he is doing because I should be out of blood by now)!! They gave me IV fluids and medicine for the nausea--that knocked me out. Around 9:00 he came back and said everything looked okay...except my potassium was about a banana low! He told me to keep the induction on Monday. Well....given everything Mr. Goodbar was NOT okay with that! He asked why I had to continue with the pain if the baby was okay. He called the other doctor and they agreed to induce as soon as there was an available spot. (They can only have so many beds occupied by inductions because of people going into labor naturally) The first spot was Thursday...with the doctor I LOVE!! YEA!!! So, I have to call at 6 AM Thursday morning to see what time I can come!! Until then, I am very drugged up!! I have my pain medication plus nausea medication that makes me sleep!! Today, Mr. Goodbar has to go in for a few hours to finish up some things and Junior Mint and I are going with him! We are going to have lunch as a family of 3 one last time!!

Right now, we just need everything to calm down. It has been a CRAZY ride for weeks now! We are SO tired and run down. I actually think things will be calmer when the baby gets here as opposed to now!! Our house has been a revolving door and nothing has gone right! We are just ready to find our "new normal".


Please pray that everything goes smoothly tomorrow and
that we can find our "new normal" easily and quickly!!!

Monday, June 14, 2010

End in sight???

Today was the same ole', same ole' thing! Up early and off to the doctor!

First, let me update on what has been going on!! Last weekend, we were back in the hospital, but not for labor pains (at first). I had a horrible pain in my side and wasn't sure what it was. The midwife and doctor thought I may have a problem with the placenta or an infection, so after several blood tests, ultrasound and pain meds they discovered that they are pretty sure it is a torn uterine muscle!! NOT FUN when it is the size of a beach ball!! They can't really confirm nor deny it until after I have the baby, seeing that you can't have any scans while pregnant! But, good news is it will heal on its own after I have the baby! While I was in the hospital I started "hard labor contractions" so much that the doctor and nurse were both convinced that it was labor and the doctor said 48-72 hours til we had a baby.....well, that came and went with NO LUCK!! They sent me home with pain medication to wait some more. I've had contractions about every day for 2-3 hours a day like that, I just have to suffer through them until they go away. Two doctors and the midwife told me to wait until 38 and 1/2 weeks and we would discuss what we could do!!

With that being said, we were more than anxious to make it to the doctor today!! I had already told myself not to get too excited. We were seeing the one doctor we haven't seen at all during this pregnancy. We went through everything we have been through in the last seven weeks. He said that for the baby's sake he wouldn't induce until next Monday! NOT the news I needed today!!

So, right now we are waiting on confirmation from the hospital that Monday is all set up! I'm still hoping that we don't make it there. This is getting unbearable! I am pretty much in constant pain of some sort, either contractions, pelvic pain or the torn muscle pain. I can only take the pain medication when I have someone here to watch Junior Mint!!

I know I've become "less than friendly" to most. I'm so tired of the same old questions with the same old answers! I know Mr. Goodbar is over all this!! He has done everything for 7 weeks now!! He has been Mommy and Daddy, done the laundry, done the cooking/cleaning and still had to work 50 hrs or so at work, do his consulting work at home and keep up with his commitments at church!! He has done an amazing job (especially considering he doesn't get much sleep because of me)!!

So....we know there is an end but I'm not quite sure it is in sight for us yet!!!

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Waitin' it out....

I went back to the doctor yesterday to check on the little nuggets. Sadly, there wasn't really any change in the news from last Thursday!

He told me that nothing had really changed with my dilation and there was really nothing they could do for me right now! It's still too early to think about inducing. This was NOT the news I was hoping for yesterday!! I'm sure my disappointment was due to the fact that my pain was the worst I have had yet. My contractions were about every 4 minutes or less but they weren't getting any stronger, just strong enough to hurt but not do anything. The abdominal cramping was what was so bad...I couldn't really walk! The doctor told me the only thing to do was stay off my feet at this point for what little relief I could get, but there was no way to stop or ease the pain!

I was really disappointed all afternoon, but like I said, I'm sure the pain had a lot to do with that. I kept reminding myself all day that that was probably the answer I would get, but I guess I was hoping for better news! Not to mention, there is still the wedding on the 12th; it looks like Mr. Goodbar will be traveling by himself unless this little guy decides to come before the weekend!!

So now, the only thing is to wait! More waiting!!! I'm trying hard not to get discouraged! I know people reading this are thinking "you're only 36 1/2 weeks", but after having pre-term labor twice and all the medicine and constant pain/contractions for days, it's kind of hard not to want this baby to come NOW! I woke up this morning deciding that I would just go about everything as normal as possible, because it won't be long before we have a "new kind of normal" around here! I'm going to rest when I can, get off my feet when Junior Mint will cooperate (which he has been AMAZING lately), take a warm bath when the pain gets bad and try not to be impatient!!

Friday, May 28, 2010

Are you SERIOUS????

Well....yesterday was another day of "are you serious?" I went to bed Wednesday with some cramping and back pain. I thought if it wasn't any better by the morning I would call the doc and ask. I woke up Thursday morning and the pain was much worse!!

I went to the doctor and the midwife said I was "in limbo", she couldn't tell if I was actually in labor or not, because I had dilated some but it was only a little! She sent me to the hospital to get monitored and left me with the thought that "you may have a baby today". When I got there I was having contractions about every 4 minutes. They were consistent and regular, I had dilated to 3 cm. The doctor came in and told me since I was only 36 weeks they wouldn't help me along. They won't break my water until 37 weeks--so this doctor says! I wonder if I had my regular doctor if the answer would have been different!?!

They sent me home, with contractions every 5 minutes or so, gave me a shot for pain and said to come back when my water breaks or they are 2-3 minutes apart!!

So.....where are we now, you ask?? I am home, having contractions about every 5 minutes or so, some are more painful than others, having back labor, and cramping (for you ladies, like the worst menstrual cramps ever). We are waiting, trying EVERYTHING to get this baby to come!! I have an appointment on Tuesday, where we will have to have a discussion about how I can't have contractions every 5 minutes with back labor for another week!! It is hard to walk at points and definitely hard to accomplish anything!!

Well...that's about it. Yesterday was a CRAZY day to say the least!!!

Monday, May 17, 2010

The light at the end of the tunnel....



WOO-HOO....I can see the light at the end of the tunnel!

We went back to the doctor today and got some good news!! He wanted to get another ultrasound, he said he trusted theirs a little more than the hospitals since they do them all day, everyday on just babies! I'm so glad they did one!! The wonderful thing is they could see that his lungs are doing well and he is breathing well on his own!! The steroids did their job!! They also know his bladder is developed and working (he had to pee while she was looking at him). He is actually measuring on target with my due date, not two weeks ahead. I know that seems to be a bad thing, but it's a good thing! It means we don't have a gigantic baby and we don't have to worry about the things that could be wrong when your baby measures big! He has gained weight so they know he is growing (not shrinking). He's weighing in at 5 lbs. 5 oz.

I, on the other hand, have lost 3 more pounds! I am now only 3 lbs. heavier than when I got pregnant!! They aren't worried because the little nugget is growing and gaining weight, it's just me. That seems like an awesome thing, and it is to a point. He is running out of room to move and grow, so I need to gain weight. Here is the awesome thing...I have to consume more calories and gain weight!! That means all those fattening foods most pregnant women avoid....I get to indulge in them!!! That's pretty exciting! My wonderful Mr. Goodbar has promised milkshakes at night!!

I asked about coming off the medication and he said one more week....ONLY ONE MORE WEEK!! I get to stop taking the meds next Monday! It makes me hot, dizzy and sleepy so I am SO excited! Not to mention, I have to set an alarm at night to take it, so I will get to sleep through the night! I know it's preparation for the next couple of months, but I would like to get a few full nights sleep before he gets here!! He also seemed optimistic that I could come off strict bed rest on Monday too!! That's great!! It's exciting to know that in just a couple of weeks he could be here, safe and healthy!!!

We got some great news today!! I'm much more upbeat now! It makes it a lot easier to handle when you know it's only one more week of bed rest and meds!!


Please continue to pray for our little nugget and his growth!!

Monday, May 10, 2010

Not much to report...

Well, there isn't a lot in the way of new news. I went to the doc this morning to check on the little nugget! I haven't dilated anymore, which is GOOD!! I had a test called a fetal fibronectin test. It is supposed to predict premature labor in the next two weeks or so (medicine is amazing)! The test won't come back until tomorrow (which we knew that).

Outcome of today: I am still on bedrest, I am still on my medicine and I have lost almost 2 more pounds! He isn't worried about the weight, as long as it starts to come up soon!! I have to go back in a week for another check-up.

Still waiting....and waiting....and waiting, but that's a good thing right now, he needs to stay put for a little while!

Please pray that the little nuggets stays put until he's fully developed, that my contractions/pains don't come back, my family who is watching Junior Mint and our two dogs and for my poor hubby that has to put up with me while working and doing EVERYTHING around here (all while I freeze him out cause my medicine makes me incredibly HOT)!!

Friday, May 7, 2010

This week has been a roller coaster!!

Let's see if I can even remember all that has happened to us in the past few days!!

First, Monday Junior Mint has a little stomach bug but it seemed much better and gone by Tuesday. Wednesday morning we all 3 woke up with it. Mr. Goodbar stayed home from work (which he has to be VERY sick to do). We realized that Junior Mint hadn't peed in about 13 hours, so we called the doc and of course they wanted to see him. By the time we got there he was throwing up every 20 minutes or so and couldn't keep anything down. They sent us to the children's hospital for dehydration to try to make sure he wouldn't get any worse. He was so tired and sick when we got there they decided to try oral meds first. That seemed to do the trick (they were very strong). We had to wait until he could keep down fluids and solids before we could leave. Eventually, everything was good and he seems to be back to about 99% now!!

That's the easy part to explain!! Now, for me!!! I've been having contractions since week before last and the doc was going to do a test this coming Monday to try to predict if anything was going to happen soon. We didn't make it that far! When I got sick Wednesday I couldn't stop throwing up either. I hadn't kept anything down, including liquids. So, I began to get dehydrated, which I called my doc to go see them but I wanted to get Junior Mint taken care of first, we thought he was worse! While at the children's hospital, I started having bad contractions, the kind I couldn't talk through. Off to the doc I went!! When I got there they checked the baby's heartbeat and told me I had to get to the hospital NOW! The ketones in my urine were incredibly bad, which meant my body was eating stored fat. If you read my last post you will see that I have only gained 8 lbs...well, by the time I got to the doc I had lost 1.4 of that. I thought I would be going in for some IV fluids then home. They hooked me up to the monitors and ran some tests. I was definitely in pre-term labor! My contractions were rather strong. They gave me some medicine for the nausea and pain killer which helped me sleep. I had started to dilate and they were concerned. They also gave me steroid shots to help the baby develop faster. They admitted me and I had to stay to get fluids and to monitor my contractions, which at that point seemed to be diminishing with the fluids (or so we thought). About 2 AM they came in and woke me up (they gave me something to help me sleep) and said my contractions had picked up and they needed to advance to the medicine to make them stop.

Thursday morning, I woke up and the doc came in and ordered an ultrasound to check on the baby and my progress. The baby is actually measuring two weeks ahead so that's good! Everything looked good. I had two more shots to stop contractions and they had to change my nausea medicine to something stronger. I then had the medicine orally to stop contractions and one more steroid shot (they REALLY hurt by the way). They said I could go home if I kept something down and my contractions slowed. Thankfully, both of those happened! They sent me home last night with some strong nausea medicine and Tributeline (to stop contractions) by mouth. I take that every 4 hours...EVERY 4 hours so I have to set an alarm to get up and take it at night, but it seems to be helping...I WILL NOT complain about that! I did get sick again last night but so far so good today. I kept half a bagel down so far! So what does all this mean....

Well, the baby needs to stay put for a couple more weeks at the earliest!! So, I am on the medicine (one of which is not normally covered by insurance and it is VERY expensive, but thankfully our insurance covers it) and I go back Monday to check on everything. I have been put on bed rest! Seeing that Junior Mint is a two year old...that's difficult! But God has a way of working everything out!! Unfortunately, my sister lost her job last week, however that is the ONLY way this is possible for us! She is going to keep him for me until we know more. Then, hopefully she will be able to come to our house for a little while to keep him too (they live 4 1/2 hours away). My mom came down to care for him and me for now. God has a way of working everything out!!

Right now, we are just waiting and I am resting! Hoping this baby decides to stay put for a while!!!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Wait...How did this happen?


Yesterday, I went to the doctor to check on the newest Noble nugget. The doctor walked in and said, so you are 30 weeks and 2 days, I thought "What?? Wait!! How did this happen?" I know I often complain that pregnancy is way too long. In fact, this weekend Mr. Goodbar and I were having a conversation with some friends about how God can do anything He wants, so why did He choose 9 months, why not shorter...then Mr. Goodbar replied "at least He didn't treat it like an elephant"..Thanks!

Anyway, what happened? Where has the time gone? I have 9 weeks left. WHAT??? We still have to paint Junior Mint's new room and move him into it (which includes moving the guest bed to the basement and the basement couch to the office), paint over the name on the wall in the nursery and get it ready, drag out all the baby stuff from the attic, pack the bags and finalize plans for Junior Mint when the time comes! (Hopefully, the rooms will be done next week.) Not to mention, a wedding Mr. Goodbar is in 2 weeks before my due date and he just found out he has to go to Connecticut June 2nd (at least it's only a day). So, if you haven't figure it out by now...I'm starting to freak out!! I suddenly feel like we are in a race against the clock!

Good news is the little nugget is doing great! Everything looks good! I've gained a total of 8lbs so far (which is surprising the way I look in the picture) but we figured out it is ALL baby! I asked if this baby is huge or does he just feel huge, and the doctor's response was "Well, he's definitely a BIG baby, not a giant, but big, very healthy for this stage." Thanks...I think! He assures me he is not too big, just healthy! Which I am VERY grateful for... but with Junior Mint being almost 9 lbs when he was born, this worries me, because this baby feels (and looks) that big NOW!

The biggest problems now are I'm still having a little pain from the pulled groin muscle 2 weeks ago, but it is diminishing, the aches are getting stronger in my back and lower abdomen, and he is on the move 24/7 which makes it very hard to sleep or rest! Overall, things are good. Oh yeah...I have been having some dizzy spells, and the doctor thinks it is probably an inner ear issue from drainage from my sinuses with all this pollen and no allergy medicine!! That's easy to deal with though, sit and rest!

So....time is counting down, much faster here towards the end it seems!! The nugget is doing well, Junior Mint is well, Mr. Goodbar is well and so am I...we can't ask for anything more!!!!


Wednesday, April 14, 2010

No snowflake in an avalanche ever feels responsible.

Monday morning I was searching the internet for a mom’s Bible study….one that I could either follow online or download. In my quest, I came across several little devotional sites but never really found exactly what I was looking for, however I did find something interesting. I began to notice a trend…every devotion I looked at was about forgiveness! I thought was odd, so I looked at just devotionals for women and then just devotionals…all of them had the same theme, FORGIVENESS. At that point, I figured it was worth passing on!

It was even more interesting that we had just had a brief conversation with someone the day before about forgiveness. This person mention knowing someone whose husband had cheated on her four times, Mr. Goodbar and I both had the same response. “How do we know it is his entire fault?” I know for many of you, this is where you think we are crazy, but hang in there!! The thoughts behind that were maybe after the first time she said she forgave him, but never really did. Maybe, every time they went to bed she had a comment or maybe she would flip out and question him if he was even speaking to a woman? Don’t get me wrong, I am in NO way condoning him cheating, but why are we so quick to judge people who do something wrong but think nothing of the people that don’t truly forgive and keep drudging up the past?

We’ve all done things that we would rather forget and things that we are truly sorry for….what if God had that same mentality that we get sometimes? “I’ll forgive all right, but don’t worry, I’ll never forget”. I understand that we can’t truly forget, that’s human nature, but we can actually put it behind us and move on. When we hang onto it and keep bringing it up, that’s called a grudge, which is just as wrong as the thing that happened in the first place!

The Bible tells us:

Colossians 3:13
Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

Matthew 6:14-16
For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

Luke 6:37
Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.

Matthew 18:21-22
Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?" Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.

I know that is a lot easier read than done (ha ha) but I believe God rewards effort. He knows we are human, after all He created us! He understands that we are filled with emotions that hinder us from a lot in our lives, but He also knows we are capable of striving for better.

Forgiveness is a choice, not something that just happens. We have to CHOOSE to forgive wholly, not partially. We have to CHOOSE to move on and not hold it against someone. God has chosen to forgive us; God has commanded us to forgive!

In the case of the cheating spouse, why should he strive for better if he is always guilty in her eyes, always cheating, never quite able to overcome what he did? I’m not saying this is the case in this situation, I don’t know, Mr. Goodbar and I just feel that you can’t always blame others for things that happen over and over and never look at yourself a little.

There is always going to be someone that does something wrong towards you or hurts you, that’s life, but sometimes we don’t stop and put ourselves in their shoes, think of the situation, and MOST OF THE TIME we don’t whole heartedly forgive them when they are sorry! I understand a lot of people say “they aren’t truly sorry”, that’s not for you to decide, just like the Bible says in Luke, our job is to forgive, not judge! God can take care of the true repentance, we are called to forgive.

Next time you are quick to bring up the past to someone who has hurt you or to hang onto their sin….think of how you would feel if God hung onto everything you have done wrong and brought it back up each time we sinned!!

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

TO BE or NOT TO BE?

Not long ago, I was riding with a friend having a conversation about some mutual people we know, people who say they are Christians but we were discussing how if a stranger sat down with them and didn’t discuss the topic directly would they know they were children of God!

That made us start talking about people who say they are Christians and even go to church, some even every time the doors are open, but does their life really reflect a change?

(Yes, I have written on something very close to this before but not exactly!)

It doesn’t mean that I doubt everyone that does questionable things, because we ALL sin and do stupid things!! I mean the people that blatantly disagree with some basic truths of the Bible. Can we doubt the Bible in certain areas and still be a complete follower of Jesus? How is that any different than Jewish people, who we don’t call Christians, but they follow the Bible, just don’t believe in the New Testament? What if I said I didn’t believe in one little thing? I know some people will argue that you can disagree with the little things, as long as you are on the same page with the (what our pastor calls) “the non-negotiables”.

Don’t get me wrong, I agree that there are some things that it is okay to have a different opinion on, for example: Premillennium, Amillennium, or Postmillennium (if you are unsure what that means, I suggest an internet search here). That difference doesn’t really matter; our pastor puts it best….

“I’m not on the Time and Place committee; I’m on the preparation committee!”

So where is the line? Where is that defining point of disagreement verses non-believing? How do you decide what the “important things” are and what you can disagree with? I’m not going to pretend that I have some deep philosophical answer (maybe you do??) but I can say that I do think there are things that you MUST agree with! Part of being a Christian (TO ME) is you have a fundamental belief in the a few things…this website is the BEST one I have found that lays it all out (with reference verses)!!

The Baptist Faith

(even if you are not Baptist, please take a few minutes to read it, it is a statement of faith for Christians, I am aware that there are minor differences such as total immersion vs. sprinkling, etc. I chose this one because it is reputable source; you have to be careful where you get your faith statements!)

We have a book, A Time To Clash, by Doug Giles. We do NOT agree with everything in the book, there is one thing that I am starting to see more and more, especially in light of our new “leadership”. He has a chapter entitled, “A Christian Can Be a Christian or a Liberal, But He Can’t be Both”. (Not a Democrat, a Liberal, there is a difference) This website explains that chapter in a short, to the point kind of way. I do recommend you check out the actual book and this chapter (if nothing else) because it gives REAL examples of the kind of thing he is speaking of!

Check it out!

Now that I am sure I’ve made several of you mad with that….

Back to the conversation with my friend….we talked about if you discussed the current American situation with a person, would they know you were a Christian? If your answer is….probably or maybe, then you need to rethink where you stand on some issues! When we discuss the “major” issues on the table there should be a difference with what we say/believe and what “mainstream America” says/believes! We know that Christianity is no longer promoted as “mainstream” so therefore, we can’t go with mainstream America. We have to stand up and make a stance!

There WILL come a time when we have to defend our faith, it looks like sooner than later, so are you ready to stand up against the masses and defend what you believe NO MATTER WHAT? Do you believe in your faith enough to change the way you think socially and politically??

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

2 Yr. Check-up

Yesterday, we had Junior Mint's 2 yr. check-up. It went GREAT! Dr. Andrews (amazing doctor, by the way) said he was doing great for his age and "ahead of the game" on most things.

He is weighing in at barely 23 1/2 lbs. That's in the 5th percentile!
He is measuring at 33 1/2 inches. That's in the 10th percentile!
Both of those are consistent with the way he has been growing over the past year, so he's just little!

He only had one shot and that was because his 18 month check-up was a little early to get it. He did great, no crying! He got upset when they wanted to put a band-aid on it..he kept saying "don't do that". He didn't need a band-aid, he's a big boy (that's what he told me).

All the nurses kept saying how cute he was and how "advanced" he was in his speech and understanding skills. Dr. Andrews asked how old he was and Junior Mint proudly stated "TWO"! He showed all his teeth and happily let them do everything to him!

We even went potty before we left the house, got there and I asked if he need to go, he said "yes" so we went, he peed and was DRY! We tried again before we left and he was dry and didn't need to go. We left the doctor (about 30 minutes from home) and stopped by the bank then home and he was dry the whole time! We had NO peeing in his pull-up! He peed once in a pull-up while we were at the ball field while Mr. Goodbar practiced with the church softball team. There was no bathroom and he hasn't learned the joy of being a boy and being able to go anywhere...we haven't gotten the standing thing yet!

The appointment went great...the potty training went great!!!!

Monday, March 22, 2010

Potty Training Day 1

Well...it really isn't Day 1, it is Day 1 of "high gear" potty training!!

Today went really well!! He got up with a wet diaper and we put on underwear (real ones). He picked them out and I told him not to get them wet, he said "okay" and that was it!

He went to the potty all morning, we had NO accidents. He went about 3 hours between peeing (obviously, we went several more times than that). I put him in a pull-up for nap, about 10 minutes in I heard, "Mommy...pee pee in the potty". I ran upstairs and by the time we got to the potty he had JUST finished!! We put on a new pull-up and he went down, slept 3 hours and woke up dry and peed and peed on the potty! He put his undies back on and we have been good ever since now! It is right at his bedtime and we have had NO real accidents today!!! I don't consider the one time in the pull-up an accident cause he told me he had to go and he tried SO hard to get there in time!

SO....today has been a GREAT day! Hopefully, it will continue to be more consistent and good. We have to go out tomorrow, so that will throw a wrench in things but we should still be good. He can do it!!


Monday, March 15, 2010

Quick Update

I wanted to give a quick update on the little nugget!

I went today and am measuring good. The heartbeat was 145!

My iron was low and my blood pressure was high. They gave me a list of iron rich foods to eat. They checked my blood pressure again and said I was okay to leave, they will just watch it.

I go back in 3 weeks to get back on normal schedule then start every 2 weeks!!

I also had my glucose test today...YUCK! Everyone else in there got the orange, I, of course, got the fruit punch, which is HORRIBLE! It was okay, I got it down, waited my hour, had my blood drawn and then I was on my way. Now, I am in the waiting game.

Mr. Goodbar was able to keep Junior Mint while I went, thank goodness!! He would have hated all the sitting and waiting!

So...everything is good with the little nugget!!

Friday, March 12, 2010

I know..I know...

So, I know this song is NO where near new, but it is on my Junior Mint's praise and worship CD and we were listening to it. I thought....this is the perfect song for EASTER! Yes, Easter.. remember that holiday?

Mr. Goodbar and I were watching the Family Feud the other day and they asked what people associate with Easter, the number one was Easter Bunny and number two was eggs...where was JESUS or even church?? People have Easter ALL wrong! Please remember what Easter means and why we even celebrate it. So, as you consume those chocolate bunnies or marshmallow Peeps...read your Bible!!

In Christ Alone lyrics

In Christ alone my hope is found,
He is my light, my strength, my song;
this Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
when fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My Comforter, my All in All,
here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone! who took on flesh
Fulness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones he came to save:
Till on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied -
For every sin on Him was laid;
Here in the death of Christ I live.

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain:
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave he rose again!
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me,
For I am His and He is mine -
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.

No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.

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Monday, March 8, 2010

A LONG Overdue Update...


It seems like FOREVER since I did an update! I'm sorry for that. Hopefully, this will explain a little of that!

First, I hope each one of you are still taking part in the 40 days for Life!! Don't forget about the change prayer can bring!!

Now...I went for my major ultrasound a few weeks ago (again, I'm so behind). Everything went great! You can see from the pictures that he is growing and healthy!! Just in case you think you have missed something, NO we have not said his name on here and I won't (just like Junior Mint) but we have not given him a "Blog Persona" yet either. We have decided to wait and see his personality first!!

The baby is good, but Mommy not so much. This pregnancy is way more difficult than Junior Mint's, it seems. I am HUGE...which I hear is normal for baby #2! My "morning sickness" (otherwise called can't keep anything down sickness) has subsided, I'm only getting sick occasionally now, which is such a relief!! I am however, having Braxton Hicks contractions, which are completely normal at this stage, I just have to be careful and count/time them. I'm supposed to rest more and drink more, which I am trying to do. When they are bad, I have to get off my feet, which isn't easy with a 2 year old! My swelling is worse this time, but I'm sure that is because I am on my feet more than I was with Junior Mint. I have horrible heartburn....they say that means he'll have hair, we shall see!! I don't sleep well...mainly because of heartburn or the party going on in my belly. It appears as if I have the same problem I had with Junior Mint of having a lot of amniotic fluid. This pregnancy is just so different from Junior Mint!

Well...I know it appears as if I am complaining about everything, I'm sorry! I want to make sure to update everyone and try to explain why when I do get a free moment I'm usually spending it resting or catching up on housework.

Our baby boy is growing and healthy...that is ALL that matters!!


Look at those little feet!

Friday, February 19, 2010

Daily Devotionals

So...I have changed what I want to do. I decided not to copy and paste the daily devotionals here. Instead I'm going to make a link to the main site and to the daily devotionals that way you can go there on your own and browse if you like. Also, they have a special link for printable devotionals....in case anyone wants them that is a much better way to get them printed out!



Thursday, February 18, 2010

Day 2 of 40 Days for Life

Day 2 - February 18

Intention:

May the King of the Universe, who entered this world as a helpless infant, give us the humility to be healed.

Scripture:

My power is made perfect in weakness.

--2 Corinthians 12:9

Reflection:

The great mystery of the Humility of God is very near and dear to the mission of those serving in pro life and in a special way, post abortion ministries across this nation. For those wounded by their participation in abortion, the door to healing often feels like crossing an abyss of great fear: fear of judgment, fear of being torn apart by the pain, by self hatred and rage at those who hurt and abandoned you, and manipulated you in your time of temptation. For men in particular, entering the unknown waters of emotional vulnerability, so necessary to healing calls for a different kind of courage that feels deceptively like weakness.

The door to healing is humility. It is born in the inability to no longer control the pain, to live with the consequences of that tragic decision to reject life. The hearts cries out, "I have committed a grave offense against my Creator and I am consumed by regret, grief and sorrow!"

During these forty days let us pray for all who have participated in abortion and with love call them to healing and reconciliation. With healing these women and men can become as John Paul II proclaimed in the Gospel of Life, "the most eloquent defenders of everyone's right to life."

Jesus proclaimed, "I am the Vine, you are the branches" (John 15:5). To bear the greatest fruit, the branches must be pruned. Each level of pruning of the vine requires a deeper level of humility so that we can abandon ourselves to His will. This is not a lofty theological concept as much as it is an earthy experience of pulling weeds, tilling rocky soil, pruning and healing the vines. "If a man wishes to come after me, he must deny his very self, take up his cross, and begin to follow in my footsteps" (Matthew 16:24).

Prayer:

Lord, during these forty days, we ask that with each day of this sacred vigil, everything in us that separates us from your perfect will would be pruned from our hearts and souls. In this blessed freedom may we experience a powerful anointing of your Holy Spirit. Filled with confidence and trust may we proclaim with the mother of Jesus, "Let it be done to me, according to your Word."

Kevin Burke
Executive Director, Rachels Vineyard Ministries

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

WOW...what a day!

All I can say is WOW!! Yesterday was probably one of the worst days Junior Mint and I have ever had....that's bad!

He was an angel day before yesterday...so of course, me being the proud mom I am, bragged forever to anyone who cared that he was so good and behaved so well for me. WELL.....then it hit yesterday! Mr. Goodbar said I bragged too much and he thought he would even it out for me...and that he did. I can honestly say that Junior Mint won the battle yesterday, which is my fault! I realize that I had given up, by the time the afternoon came we had had the following:

  • Dog food dumped out 3 times and picked up (by Junior Mint)
  • Dog water dumped out 1 time
  • Junior Mint took his clothes off
  • Junior Mint took his diaper off and peed in the floor twice before I could get to him (then laughed)
  • Dumped out the dog treats and fed them to the dogs off and on ALL day because he hid them in places where I didn't find them
  • Cried through nap (which NEVER happens)
  • Counted 1-2-3 and jumped off the couch about 20 times
  • Sprayed the dogs with air freshner
  • Used his picnic table like a jungle gym
  • Pulled the dog off the couch by his hair
And I'm sure the list goes on and on! Where was I you ask....well, right behind him. I told Mr. Goodbar I was putting out fires all day. There was instruction and correction, but yesterday he just didn't seem to care! Not to mention, this little nugget in my belly had me feeling yucky and I didn't sleep the night before...which I know is NO excuse! I was just so done by the time Mr. Goodbar got home.

I realized this morning, Junior Mint had won! He was trying my patience and trying to see what he could do to bother me and he won! I let him win a battle...one that I can't let him win again. I know there will be bad days, and some really bad days, but that doesn't mean that I can just give up and let it happen! I forgot the most important thing....I'm not a single parent, I have Mr. Goodbar but I also have someone much stronger than him, much more patient than either one of us, much more capable of handling these stressful situations...GOD! I forgot to seek help and guidance when I needed it most. I forgot to lean on him for understanding and answers! But I know that even though I failed yesterday, I can start over today. I can lean today where I didn't yesterday. I won't make my failures Junior Mint's and I won't allow him to be disobedient to me because I was to my God...I gave up and I won't allow him to give up on listening and obeying. I will remember that I am not alone...none of us are!

No matter if we decide to check out as a mom, dad, child, worker, follower....we have to remember that we have someone much more capable to handling all this on our side, ready to advocate for us, ready to help us...we just have to call out His name!


From Hugs for New Moms book:

"When motherhood is draining the best of you and you feel overwhelmed and ill-equipped for the responsibilities of caring for your family, look up and remember that I'm your ever-present helper! Come to Me, and I'll refresh you and recharge your emotional, physical, and spiritual batteries. You'll find that with My help you can accomplish amazing things you could never do alone.

Energizing you
Your All-Powerful God"

~from Psalm 121:1-2, Matthew 11:28 and Philippians 4:13

Day 1 of 40 Days for Life

Day 1 - February 17

Intention:

That we may use these 40 Days for Life to plead for God's mercy and grace upon all those involved in the sin of abortion.

Scripture:

Blow the trumpet in Zion! Proclaim a fast, call an assembly. Gather the people, notify the congregation. Assemble the elders; gather the children and the infants at the breast… Let the priests, the ministers of the Lord, weep and say, "Spare, O Lord, your people."

-- Joel 2:15-17

Reflection:

The toll of abortion cannot be measured. We hear estimates of almost 50 million innocent victims, but that's only one aspect of the harm that has unfolded in abortion's wake. There are also the mothers and fathers of these millions, as well as the grandparents, brothers and sisters, aunts, uncles, cousins. Unborn lives destroyed. Lives of the living shattered.

It's overwhelming and depressing, but even in the midst of such unfathomable darkness, the church teaches us to have hope. Yes, it was indeed Calvary that followed Christ's 40 days in the desert, but without Calvary there would have been no Resurrection - His victory over death that opened the gates of heaven to those who believe in and follow Him.

The psalmist encourages us to go humbly before God as we seek His will: "A clean heart create for me, O God, and a steadfast spirit renew within me… Give me back the joy of your salvation and a willing spirit sustain in me… O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth shall proclaim your praise" (Psalm 51:12, 14, 17).

We are called to be God's messengers; or as the Apostle Paul told the Corinthians: "We are ambassadors for Christ, as if God were appealing through us. We implore you on behalf of Christ: be reconciled to God" (2 Corinthians 5:20). That is the true message to all we encounter at the abortion centers and in our communities who have been deceived by the Culture of Death. We don't bring condemnation; we bring God's good news.

Prayer:

Lord, we ask for the strength, courage, wisdom, determination and stamina to carry out this mission according to Your will. Guide us, we pray, as we go forth and proclaim Your truth, always doing so with a spirit of love and compassion, as was demonstrated to us by Your Son, Jesus Christ. In His name we pray, amen.

David Brandao
Communications Director, 40 Days for Life

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Preparation for 40 days of Life....

So....the website for 40 days of Life has a daily devotional that begins today with a preparation devotion. Please check back daily....I will do my best to post the daily devotional every day! They are short and won't take long. Please take 5 minutes out of your day!!



Day of Preparation - February 16

Intention:

Pray that our nation repents from the sin of abortion and turns back to God.

Scripture:

If My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and forgive their sin and heal their land.

- 2 Chronicles 7:14

Reflection:

Not unlike God's chosen people of Israel, we must humble ourselves, pray, seek His face, and turn from our wicked ways, if we expect God to hear from heaven, forgive our sin, and heal our land. The need for repentance has not been greater since the Supreme Court decision of Roe vs. Wade in 1973. The number one cause of death in America is the needless sacrifice of our children at the altar of convenience called abortion. Conservative estimates put the number of deaths at nearly 48 million.

And lest we think this is an issue outside the church walls, 43 percent of women obtaining abortions identify themselves as Protestant, and 27 percent identify themselves as Catholic. One in four women has at least one abortion by the age of 45 -- both non-Christian and Christian alike. Where was the voice of Truth -- the church?

Mary Comm of In Our Midst Ministries, Inc. sums up the issue best as she writes, "We (the church) have been an unintentional accomplice to the millions of lives lost and to the multiplied millions of lives devastated by abortion. We didn't want them to abort. We didn't mean for them to abort. But, because of our lack of knowledge, because of our fear, we have continued to stand by and do nothing. We, God's hands and feet in this dark and hurting world, have been unintentional, unknowledgeable accomplice, but an accomplice nonetheless."

May today mark the beginning of change within the church, as God's people, in unity, seek His forgiveness.

Prayer:

Heavenly Father, we have turned our backs on you and your principles in your Word. We have allowed man to usurp Your role as God over life and the number of our days. But we come to you in brokenness and repentance over our sin. We cry out for Your mercy and ask you to remove the scourge of abortion from our land. Use us as your vessels, Lord, to bring the light of Your Truth to our nation once again. Because of Christ we pray, amen.

Carmen Pate
Co-host, "Point of View" talk show

(These are copied directly from http://www.40daysforlife.com/getinvolved.cfm?selected=devotionals)